Drats

I'm sad for two reasons. First is because I'm hubz-less for almost the entire week. Second, my lap top crashed. I know it did. I feel it inside me. When its light went out without a warning, that was it. Happened just a few minutes ago. This I am working on belongs to me' Hubz.

Now i'm trying not to panic or worry or even think about it. I'm cool. Just as cool as this morning when I peeked beneath the boys' bunk and inside their closets to discover untold regions of bewilderment and "aaarg- ness" meant only for moms with teenage boys.

I was cool. I didn't bang my head or froth in the mouth or gorge my own eye sockets out. I didn't scream or head for the raging billows of the South China Sea and glide in butterfly strokes towards Bermuda- triangle.

I wanted to. But I'm cool. I belong here. I am planted here. I will bloom here. Burst forth and spread my posh pretty pouty pollens the way nature meant it. Hush! I am the pollen of the east. I am nature. Revered.

Oh yes. I am the tulip. I am the.. b-o-u-nganvillia ( hell how do you spell that?). I am the gumamela...the champaca...the sampaguita and the rosal.

S*-T, my laptop is dead!My files!!! My pictures!!!
Hu!hu!hu!hu!hu!
Commiserate with meeee ohhh world...for we are one...hu! hu! hu!

ey, I said a bad word there. It's been such a long time since I've said a bad word. Can I say it again? I know a few more.

Will I post this?
should I post this?
But what is a post ( asked by the great Foamy)?
Now that my laptop is - dead..

( I can't even change my bloody smiling picture up there hu! hu! u! hu!)